
Hello 2018

I can't believe time flies and I am 21 years old. What have I done to my pass 20 years? Nothing. Yes, the word 'miserable' is way too suitable to describe my life now. I don't know what I want or what should I do. Try to meditate, well, it works, but just for temporary. I still haven't solved my problems. Sometimes, I thought I am a strong and upright person, but I have misjudged myself. I become timid when I try to face my relationship. As my crush have an EX that he could't forget, I was dead worried that he might go back to her side. Though he told me he already moved on, but I know that was just temporary. I faced this problem before, last time, I thought I can 100% forget 10 years and try to my true love. But turn out that I keep on finding 10 years' shadow! Luckily, my bestie tried to motivate and convince me that 10 years isn't the old 10 years I knew. After that, I can totally 1000% let go 10 years. Until I met this pig guy, yes, he is a PIG! A stupid pig, I want to reach him but he is pushing me away. Arrgh! I try to keep calm and less contact with him. Unfortunately, my heart is unstoppable and in the end, I am a heart broken girl. Serve you right, heart. You are making your owner become a miserable and emotional girl again. I try hard to forget, but then that PIG GUY appears in my dream! Not once not twice but countless. This drives me crazy. Well, I can't control my dream right? Haiz...So PIG GUY, if you are playing with me, I will totally disappear in your life (of course I know you don't give a shit to this) but if you want me to wait, I WILL WAIT!